Struggles

The last couple of months have proven to be fairly challenging. I don't expect that to change anytime soon, sadly.

I'm not feeling well again. The exhaustion and mind-numbing fatigue has returned. I'm not sure it ever went away, but I seem to notice it more in fall and winter. It's like I'm a reverse vampire - darkness falls and I have to go to bed. I've continued to gain weight, even as I've been working my tail off at boot camp. I finally went to an endocrinologist last month, and he ordered a new round of tests, which I am waiting for the results on.

Work is really busy. I honestly feel like I cannot catch a break at it. Every couple of months, right when I'm starting to get my feet under me again, someone leaves. It's fairly exhausting and overwhelming.

I think the biggest problem is that I'm struggling so much with my mood. I cannot tell if I'm depressed and that's causing problems, or if my health issues and stress at work are combining to leave me feeling depressed. Sigh.

I wish I had something positive to report tonight. I am going to see my sister for Thanksgiving, so that will be fun. And Christmas is next month.